Post by ALISSA BRIANNA KOHLE on May 26, 2011 20:57:58 GMT -5
Alissa Brianna Kohle, Izzy Hilton, Regular Student, Callista
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It’s only fair to start with a few truths that will be obvious I think? I haven’t always been Alissa Brianna Kohle, my birth name was Alexander Benjamin Kohle and out of respect for my parents I didn’t change my initials or go too far from where it started? I was born male when it comes to the physical but in my mind I’ve always been Female. I know my parents don’t understand but they don’t really have to…and if they want to be angry that’s their choice. I was born on April second about twenty one years ago now. I do go to the university, I’m a regular student there since I didn’t think a sorority would let me pledge and a frat just isn’t my style since I have nothing in common with the men in them. I fall into the category of Asexual when it comes to my sexuality because I want love not sex. Yes I’m a virgin and it’s staying that way till I find someone who actually loves ME not who they want me to be or think I should be.
Personality wise I come across as really tough and strong because I can’t let people see me weak. If they see the weakness they’re going to use it against me and it’s going to hurt ten times worse than their testing the waters to see if they can get to me. I’m normally a very friendly, outgoing and downright bubbly person. I like getting to know new people even though I know most of them are only talking to me because they want to see wtf’s up with the dude dressing like a chick. No I’m not a cross dresser, I’m starting the medicines that will help me make the change from male to female, I want to be who I’m truly meant to be. I won’t change myself for anyone but me, and only to make myself into the me I want to be. I’m loving but I’ve never been in love…I don’t trust it. I don’t let people close enough to me for love because normally those who flirt with me or take that kind of interest are doing it on a dare or to see if they can get into my skirt to check what equipment I have. I’ll tell anyone outright that I’m physically male so the underhanded ways of finding out offend me. I don’t lie, they only come back to bite you in the ass and I’m careful about the people I let close because I don’t want to end up hurt by users or people playing games.
My history goes along the lines of mom and dad had a boy, were happy about this…then found out as I got older and wanted to wear pretty dresses and let my hair grow long that there was something “wrong” with their son. They don’t like my choice and that’s fine with me because they don’t have to like it, they just have to not stand in my way. I grew up in a small town, my being who I was never ended in being a scandal as I got new outfits and my hair got longer. I had a few true friends and those few were everything to me. I grew up being different and picked on but I got good grades and kept out of trouble because I had a goal. I’ve accomplished the first step of my goal now, I’ve gotten into a good college to study Fashion Design like I’ve always wanted and I’m taking steps toward becoming fully a woman. I know I have a long/hard road ahead of me but I’m ready to face it head on and make a life for myself that I can be proud of.
